The Great Pretending

How much of our attention is devoted to searching or seeking? Much of it is for knowledge of the universe, or how our world and our bodies function. But the ultimate search is characterized by the question we all, sooner or later, feel drawn to ask: “Who am I?”

This question can only be asked from the conviction that everything in the universe is different and separate from everything else. And particularly that nothing is a part of what created it. We have been asking this question since time began, rarely pausing to consider, the one thing that must be known by every living thing is what it is. Without knowing this it could not exist.

In Mind, without the belief of being separate, being and knowing are the same. Therefore, when we deny our knowing, as we do by pretending to be uncertain what we are, it is because we do not want to be what we are and think we can become something we would like more.

Denial of knowing is the beginning of the experience of being separate. Claiming to be uncertain who we are creates the need to question which separates us from where the answer must be. This results in the mind seeming to become split into knowing and not knowing, having and not having, loving and not being loved.

Where is the essential “you” in this attempted duality? Are you the one who doubts and asks the question? Or is your doubting just a thought, a denial of knowing by the one who knows? When you say, “I cannot hear the Voice for God,” is it because you really do not want to hear? Are you afraid that what you hear will not be what you want to hear?

What better way to describe an illusion than to tell your story as though it was written and acted by someone else? Yet this is the story of the world, a limitless variety of tales all trying to make ignorance the truth. All denying the one thing it is impossible to deny. In our perception of separateness it seems “natural” to assume we have separate minds. We do not ask how it is then possible to connect to those “other minds” for our communication.

Accommodating our belief, God answered our “Who am I,” question by placing the answer in our mind where it would always be available to us and we could finally be led to see that the one who asked must also be the One who answered.

Take responsibility for knowing who you are. Admit it is merely a matter of having chosen not to know and you will have overcome the largest obstacle to “not knowing.” Now consciously choose to know and discover how much more easily you can be led to find the “place” within your mind where the essential You has always been.

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5 Responses to The Great Pretending

  1. Jessica Rios says:

    As often is the case when reminded that I have chosen not to remember, I am in tears. WHAT could I want more? There is so much pain in forgetting, such a heavy weight in pretending to be separate from God, in choosing not to be at peace. Let me go now, and make a new choice. Thank YOU for choosing to remember, and for extending such clear reminders to us all.

  2. John Magnie says:

    I really love this pretending viewpoint,Tom. The idea that I am just pretending not to know who I am has a kind of lightness to it, like the course phrase “a tiny mad idea about which I forgot to laugh”. So I’m thinking that could apply to: pretending to not know why I have illnesses and troubles; pretending that I am in some kind of exile; pretending to not know the future.
    So could awakening be as simple as “unpretending”?…or just pretending TO know?

    • Tom Carpenter says:

      Hi John, Thanks for your comment. Awakening can be as simple as letting go of all our pretending. Forgiveness is the process of letting go of pretending that our judgments have any real purpose beyond our pretending to be something we can never be. I would suggest however, that pretending TO know is what we are already doing. I feel more comfortable in knowing there is another Presence, given to us by God, that we can rely on.

      • John Magnie says:

        Thanks so much for your observations and guidance! If I get it, I think you are saying that pretending can take us into a world of perception, but we cant really pretend back to where we never left? Would choosing to know be a better way to think of it?
        And if I did remember the answer to “Who am I?” would I also remember why I went into this pretending to be separate from God in the first place? (another denial of knowing?)
        I’m sure the answer to all these questions will be the old usual: forgiveness!
        And I so much appreciate the communication going on here on the Forgiveness Network!

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